Friday, October 24, 2014

Songs

Autumn is here. I see it in the way the leaves trade out their garments of green for red and orange. It seems even the trees have fashion sense, and who can blame them? Autumn is here, and orange is the new green, red is the new pink. 

Autumn is here, and there's something about the brown grass and the crisp air and the dead, cast-off tree-clothes crunching under my feet. Why does this time of sleep and death and endings speak beauty instead of pain? Autumn is here, and my heart is inexplicably moved. 

Autumn is here, and the rocks burst forth and cry to the sky of the Voice that my lips so often forget to mention. Their songs are enough to awaken my soul to the truth of what it all means.

Autumn is here, and I sing. I sing of summer's death, I sing of early shadows, I sing of fallen leaves, of wind whipping across my face, of dappled sunlight, sweatshirts, and watery eyes.

Autumn is here, and I sing of the Voice that speaks it into existence this year, as He has every year previous. 

Monday, September 8, 2014

Song of the Watchman

Forsooth, I thought a guard I was,
Beyond my means no challenger
But challenged by a questing mob,
With bricks and shards in ready hands,
To break me under heavy load
And cast me to the vicious teeth
Of dogs with mange and curling lips,
I break and leap from parapet
To fall upon the rocks of hope,
And gulls, they feast instead of hounds

Clad in the hues of gold and black,
Or so I thought, 'fore push (damned push!)
Came unto shove and painted me
Not gold, but yellow. "Heartless wretch!
You fail to guard from fallen-ness!"
What of my past? Of twenty-three
Who fell beneath courageous sword
And rose no more to threaten ye,
Does that not count? "Nay, verily!
Hast failed this once, your failure lasts."

Break, break, you fool! Now hope no more
For faith and courage lose their joy
And thankless life you treasured once
Now turns to dust before the horde
"The fraud holds watch! He let them in!"
Let what? The rumours? Poisoned tongues?
I speak the truth, but lies ye hold
Inside embittered hearts. Unseen,
The joyous song now turns to dust,
I break my heart upon a dream.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Brothers

I looked around today
At faces--bearded, smooth, intent
On one thing: sharing life with me

The men at the gate
This gate is my heart
And I wonder at my eyes

They never saw how blind they were until
    They stung
        And filled
            And dripped

I looked around today and missed
What I never knew I had

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Gray

Young and naïve, armchair explorer,
Learning Chinese because Spanish was normal
Taller than most, and weaker than many,
But quick with a pen and a smile

Hair black like Raven's, fingers that flew,
Pigmented much like a midwinter snowflake
Played on a fiddle (though not by that name),
Wrote stories that featured real people

He was a guppy, a fine large-mouthed bass,
Raised on Fitzgerald and Brontë and Shakespeare
Who wanted to please, to be loved, to be needed,
And bought it all, hook, line, and sinker

Stories of hate, chock-full of lying,
Horrors and blood-bonds, back-biting Envy
He took up the knife because she said she'd done it
Used his own skin as a canvas

Embittered and frightened, texting past midnight,
Lying to parents he once thought were precious
The smiles were gone, of scars, there were many,
Traced by a second-hand blade

Then came the silence, week after week,
Talks with a clipboard, a beard, and a shrink
The "burying sickness," where secret hates hide,
Hope for a glimpse of the Raven

"I've seen both her hands, the scars don't exist,
No cross where her blood and her Envy did mix"
The veil, it is torn from the portrait of Gray,
And secret hates now turn aside

A card at the ball, "This came from her hand!"
The character with all the features of language
"She told me forever," he laughed to his date,
The wastebasket welcomed the note

Long years have passed, Raven has vanished
Her charms, they have ceased to beguile his head
And tears that once flowered in Dorian's heart,
Have forgotten, it seems, how to flow

A new dawn begins where once there was night,
A new life has bloomed in a once-sullen eye
A new name now dances on smiling lips,
A new heart now beats in his chest

"Forgive and forget," the old adage says,
Yet memory clings like a limpet, and though
Forgiveness is present, the matter is finished,
And Raven must find other skies